One New Year’s Resolution – That’s it!

This year I have decided to have just one resolution. Yes, one. But, that doesn’t mean it will be easy. In fact, as many mothers (well parents actually) will know, this is probably one of the toughest things to do once you have a child and even harder when you have children. My New Year’s Resolution is to look after myself.

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I have been ridiculously bad at looking after myself for the last five years since I had Annabelle and then Heath. I don’t eat well, drink enough fluids (don’t even get me started on my water intake) and I look terrible for it. I have blemishes, acne scars, massive under eye circles and generally really bad skin. So my mission for 2017 is to slowly build up good habits into my daily routine.

Since November, I have slowly begun to invest in new clothes, makeup and skincare. I am trying to get in to a good cleansing and moisturising routine. But the area that is going to need the most work is my diet. At the moment there is far too much sugar in between meals and not from fruit.

I have been working on a diary of the changes I am making and will upload these over the next few weeks, so stay tuned. For this post, I just thought I would let you know what to expect and the main reason for the resolution.

Basically, I feel that if I improve myself, how I look and what I consume, this will in turn benefit my children in the long run. They will have a mother who is healthier, looks better, feels better and sets a good example. I want them to see me eating nutritionally beneficial food, snacks and drinks.

Up until recently, I have always felt guilty for spending money on myself. That’s a lie actually, I still do feel guilty but I’m trying to retrain my brain! If I went to the shops and saw a jumper that I liked, I would talk myself out of buying it by saying I could buy the kids ‘x’ number of their jumpers for the same price. I’d buy cheaper makeup and skincare products when my fancy stuff ran out or the kids smooshed it.

The positive side to this is that I have found some real bargains by shopping around and some high street products that work just as well if not better than the expensive ones but I’ll break it all down in the future posts. There will be before and afters, reviews and routines. So don’t forget to let me know what you think. What is your New Year’s Resolution and do you have more than one? Bx

Mum Guilt – Blogmas Day 2

It’s day two of Blogmas and I have written and re-written this post several times today. I wasn’t really sure what I wanted to say and despite having a list of 24 ideas, I didn’t feel happy with any of them.

I guess as I have been struggling a bit recently, I haven’t had the enthusiasm to put myself out there creatively. My biggest problem is how Annabelle feels about me going back to work. It must be really strange for her considering I haven’t worked at all her entire life. For five whole years I have always been at home with her.

She seems to be suffering from separation anxiety as she will struggle to leave me in the morning to go in to school. On the really bad days there are tears and it’s tough to physically separate her from me and on others she tends to get grumpy and argumentative for no obvious reason. I had thought it was improving, however today after I watched her class assembly, she burst in to tears knowing I was going home and that she had to stay at school until 3pm.

When Annabelle started nursery, we had the same difficulties so I had anticipated that she would settle in to school in a similar way. The only difference between then and now is the length of time. At nursery she was completely fine after three weeks. We have been struggling now for three months.

She also seems to get quite jealous of Heath since I have started back at work. They will fight to sit on my lap or she will be upset if she sees me pack a swimming bag for his class. She often wants to miss school to stay with me.

I am hoping things will improve soon and I am trying really hard to give the one-to-one time she craves. It’s just emotionally tough to see her upset and to fit in everything that needs to be done during school hours so that I can dedicate time to her when she is home. If you have had this issue and have any tips on how to strike the right balance, then please let me know. I will see you tomorrow (preferably with a cheerier post!). Bx