My Vlogging Future

I’ve been thinking about my YouTube channel quite a bit recently because it has been tough integrating it in to my life. It takes a lot of time to film, edit and upload a vlog and as fun as it can be at times, more recently it has just been stressful.

YouTube Vlog

I found myself getting more and more frustrated at not having enough time in a day to get everything done and it was putting unnecessary stress on my shoulders. I wanted to quit but Andy said I shouldn’t give up. I just needed to find a balance.

The most upsetting thing for me was saying to Annabelle, ‘Can you please give me five minutes to do the vlog?’. Five minutes turned in to 30 as something went wrong, as it usually does and then just as I finished, Heath woke up from a nap. All she wanted was to spend some quality time with me while her brother was asleep. Up until that point, I had been upset because she was spending more time at nursery in preparation for school next year so to ask her to wait was unfair to her and also went against everything that I was feeling. If I was to continue vlogging, I needed to do it without sacrificing my time with my children.

As my channel is still quite new, I haven’t really found my niche. I’ve been experimenting with filming different types of vlogs to try and find what I enjoy. I think there are a lot of people out there who instantly fill a gap in the YouTube market and while I don’t mind that I am a small fish in a big pond, (well actually, I’m a speck of glitter in a big pond but hey, I’m ok with that) I would like my videos to be a bit different. I don’t want to ‘reinvent the wheel’ so to speak, I just don’t want my videos to be more of the same.

That makes me quite glad that my vlogging hasn’t worked for my life or my channel. I found it hard to remember to film, to find time to put on my makeup before we left the house each morning and to edit and upload on a Sunday. Andy has also been working six days recently and Sunday is the only full day we have together. I know I could change my schedule but to be honest, the upload day was the least of my issues with vlogging.

I hope I have found a new way to continue my YouTube channel moving forward. Let me know what you think of my vlogs so far, what you like and anything you would like to see from me in the future. Bx

Blogtober: Sibling Sunday

I had plans to take lovely pictures of Belle and Heath together for a post I had imagined to be called, Sibling Sunday. As with many things in life, what you envision sometimes just doesn’t transpire! But isn’t that just what parenthood is all about. It isn’t always sunshine and roses. It can be rough around the edges and appear dark at times. At it’s core though, there is a diamond 😉

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How cute does Heath look when he’s crying? I know I shouldn’t laugh but he just looks so delicious!

As an only child, I do wonder sometimes if that makes me a good mummy to siblings. I don’t know what it is like to have a brother or sister. As a child I missed the company when my cousins and friends went home. I also felt a bit lonely when I went on holiday with my parents and there wasn’t anyone to go on the rides at theme parks with. On the other hand, I didn’t have anyone to fight over toys with either. Maybe I would be better at conflict resolution or forgiveness if I did have a sibling. Who knows.

I try to be fair and to put myself in their mindset when they don’t get along. I guess with anything, I will just have to take every situation as it comes and learn about parenthood one day at a time. Bx